today,I saw Lejie and Stephanie after skool today at the MRT station,i just felt so bored..and noone was there wif me..looking at my watch and seeing the time,there was still 15 mins till the next bus came.i suddenly felt an urge...an urge to donate money to this blind guy who sells tissue packets near the staircase entrance of the platform.walking slowly hoping to see him there,my hopes were lost just to find myself waiting and looking and emptiness.i slowly walked back,even more discouraged and found Lejie and Stephanie walking together wif this guy...forgetting his name nows...i smiled at them but they were liked shocked to see me and made this funny sound...passing them,i took out the two dollars from my purse and stared at it...i went back to the MRT platform and gave it to this aunt selling ice-cream.she thanked me alot of times.but,i still felt sad.there is this phrase which said''give and u will receive double''but..giving didnt made me happy or sastified unlike other occasions when i gave the blind man selling tissue $1.20...happiness,how do i receive it?