Giving my teammates a smile everyday doesn't seem to make me happy,instead,it makes me feel worst as im only fooling myself...?God can i ask u Lord,to let me have a sweet dream tonight and not wake up from it?either way,i dont wanna wake up from it Lord please help me,i feel so scared and stupid.my sister is out again.i practically have no one to talk to except my maid and u...i feel lonely.this happens everyday,everytime i come back home.i wanna stay in skool.should i change back to my old personality?

Giving my teammates a smile everyday doesn't seem to make me happy,instead,it makes me feel worst as im only fooling myself...?God can i ask u Lord,to let me have a sweet dream tonight and not wake up from it?either way,i dont wanna wake up from it Lord please help me,i feel so scared and stupid.my sister is out again.i practically have no one to talk to except my maid and u...i feel lonely.this happens everyday,everytime i come back home.i wanna stay in skool.should i change back to my old personality?