skipping training 2day..have cough and dont feel like spreading my germs to my teammates least they get sick to and cnnt participate well in the competitions.:)okays,so.instead of wasting my tme doing nothing benefiting for anyone or thing,i am gonna make more ang pao decorations!!blogger has A PROBLEM and i cant upload the pictures from my browser here,only those from the internet can be uplaoded so..if wanna see my pictures,go to facebook and search-sharlene tan kaes.byes!:)

today,i seriously had nothing to do after cming home and goinng out to eat nikon musa-i think thats the name of the japaanese food restaurant- wif my mom and sister,food was really gud!!left and went to Ang Mo Kio popular to buy assesment books,and after cming home again..i had nothing to do again-so..i told myself to helpout making chinese new year's decorations for my house as no one ever mentioned wanting to decorate our house wif ang paos' :)okays,had a litle quarrel wif Huimin and jingyi today,Humin asked me to be normal and Jingyi told me to be the sharlene that she knows.999999her!!hahars,that was made by my cat-Abel..she wants attention..smart cat-noticing me staring at the computer screen and not responding to her meows and purrs makes her do this hahars,okays.tuition teacher is here now.byebye

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Amanda Tan!!today's skool chapel service was really gud!!the songs were nice,as usual like last week,LeJie sat two benches away from my bench row again!so cool!!hahars,when i realised that Huimin was singing the chapel worship song-who i am,i oso..followed her.:)am now commenting and writing on my teammys walls' hahars,its fun.now chatting with Huixin and Lydia-my junior teammys on MSN.now there is this person,who keeps annoying me,not Germaine Lee,but.i hope that she will stop coz she is like a disgrace!!haya,when will my sister come back..i need her help with the making of Jana's birthday present!!...okays,time to go again now,byes

another great day for me today,i actually made paper stars for Jana and it took me a whole of more than three hours,kinda enjoyed it but.:]she accepted it,and i sang to some of my teammys again..the seniors were interested too and it was really embarrassing to sing to the seniors,btw,maybe i will stop singing,dont really think im good anyways:)Had to colour some google wording during my skool's first lesson-White Space,quite fun and rushy though.Training 2day was hard,i fell alot of times,took off my ankle socks upon reaching home and found out that one of my toes was bleeding,safe now,blood has been washed away:)another happy thing that happened for me 2day was that i found money-$0.50 and another $0.40 in the vending machines in my skool canteen!i now that is not much,but still got lucky.i just had tuition from my sister,quite fun though,but she was strict to me..i couldn't eat the grapes that was offered to us by our maid..a whole 9.30-10.30 sitting on the same chair.okays,dont feel like using the laptop anymore,none of the teammys i feel like talking to MSN are online nows,so byebye.

its a good day 2day,i actually sang to my teammys!!not all.:)the rose i got for Jana got spoiled by my teammates yesterday...but its over.i still have one last gift for her,but..its not ready yet :)cnnt wait!!okays,my skool team lost the match 2day..to a mere 2 to 3 points away..Germaine Ong was sad and hid in the staff toilet just outside our skool hall,i went in there and entertained her:)today's literature was nto as boring as the others my class had.okays dinner time nows.byes

she claims to be a christian,but in fact,she doesn't act or behave like one,reading the bible,going to church,singing praises wont help if she is still so stubborn,she can go on around inviting people to her church camp,but look at the way she treats the people around her,all crap!!she is not fit to be a christian.her evil thoughts make her look cunning,her evil acts make her look childish,doing things that christians aren't suppose to do,wad she ever says is crap!!

u might wonder wad this insect is,its an aphid.


its late now...my leg and hand scars aren't healed yet...yayayay!!its late,hope my maid forgets to feed me my water-bashed-up pills :)my mom discussing with a tuition teacher to teach me science and maybe a little english..im really tired now,had a little surprise at home,house was renovated 2day adding 3 ceiling fans and a new house gate is cming.:)as the day gets by..i'm starting to have lesser ideas on wad to write about my day.but,i still love pictures.:)so here are some.

getting lazier each day.church service 2day was really nice,had some brick-breaking thing there.hahars,but..i didnt participate in it.Had pork ribs from 'The Cafe Cartel',really good.:)worth it..i kept daydreaming yesterday,missed alot of balls and just wached them drop to the floor.almost missed a ball that was thrown by my coach for me....i dunno why im like that,blaking out for nothing.listening to tick tock by Keisha now.i didn't eat my bashed up pills yesterday and the day before,my maid is now celebratingon her off-day,its so fast,four years had just gone since the day she came.i wish she wont have to leave,dont wanna lose one of my closest fwen..hahars,maybe she is my only close fwen.:)the thot of her waving goodbye to us at the airport really scares me..the weekend ends 2moro,which means skool is starting.left home at 8.15a.m yesterday,was too excited for the outing with Jemima.waited till like 9.20 before she turned up..i was so discouraged before that..thot that she like,tricked me and just wanted to make me sad.the juniors were there and..i just had to look dumb..okays,this post ends here,byes

still trying to find the source of my sastifaction

didnt post a post yesterday,but..wont be lazy too.i just wanna say to Le Jie,im sorry for knocking u on purpose 2day,twice..okays,maybe i did kick Jemima but that wasn't intentional.dont feel like quarrelling anymore.hahars,my mom and sis came to my skool today,after the volleyball match,played wif my sis outside for a while and went back in the hall when they left for Sentosa.:)still having trouble between some of my teammates,though i didn't get to play in the match,i did scoring for the matches between Yishun
Sec to CHIJ SJC and second match was between my seniors and Anderson.though i was really frustrated and ngry wif myself,it was a blessing in disguise due to me and Sofia getting closer and maybe,becoming fwens.okays,gtg nows.park walk wif my family.lose that fat!!

the North zone competitions are 2moro,not having a good relationship wif my teammays,well not all.only two.i felt like crying again.but it became dry.i changed,back to my oldself,am so not gonna laugh or smile again,it sucks doing those things.i feel so stress out and angry nowadays.am now talking to joey Oh abt smthing,what should my reply to her be...can we all just be the same???why dont i get to play in the competition along wif 2 other ppl just to do a test??i ain't going anywhere even after 1 year,still the same...tonight's prayer,can u let me improve??i dont wanna stay stagnant.i wanna improve,i kept twlling myself that but the same results are shown everyday.i am confused,one of my classmate keeps mentioning my late cats' name,managed to give a fake smile.:)
Can i still stay happy??i cry not over pain,but over sadness.

its time for bed for me now,a message to God,will u let my teammates win the match and make it to the finals,i can feel their burning aspiration for victory,and God,please heal JoeyOh so she can come wach the match on Thursday and Lord,change me.in two days Lord,please let this prayer of mine come true.and help the poor and sick.Me donating $1 to those i see ain't enough,please help them.

Giving my teammates a smile everyday doesn't seem to make me happy,instead,it makes me feel worst as im only fooling myself...?God can i ask u Lord,to let me have a sweet dream tonight and not wake up from it?either way,i dont wanna wake up from it Lord please help me,i feel so scared and stupid.my sister is out again.i practically have no one to talk to except my maid and u...i feel lonely.this happens everyday,everytime i come back home.i wanna stay in skool.should i change back to my old personality?

i seriously love cats!!

its gonna rain now.im reminded of that day.how hard i try to forget it...it still remains.the sky has turned dark.i read from a book that when it rains,it means God is crying.is it true???the clouds are covering the sky...thunders are roaring.just settled smthing with Huimin.better not talk abt it.:)unhappy things should just be put behind.:):):)i wish that,that my teammates would accept me and the juniors.

hahars,skol 2moro,still up using my lappy at exactly 11.08pm?!!!first time i on the com so late :)today..i cried,though i promised myself to never cry again,i broke that promise.i've broken many promises..but,today is my lucky day!!Lejie talked to me without me going to her!!yays!!:):):)i now tell myself again,to be strong and not cry over silly matters again,but..i can cry with tears of joy!!hahars.i love playing the nuisance.:)okays.my eyelids are starting to feel heavy.can picture how my eyebacks are gonna be like 2moro.so lights out!i just hope that if Lejie ever reads this.i want u to noe that Le Jie,u are the coolest person i've met in my life.no one can outbeat or surpass u!!!!Lejie!!!!!!!!!!!

church service has ended,my sister is now at my Grandma's hse.finally completed my hmwk..really exhaausted from sitting on the same chair for 2 whole hours.better start moving.:)Sky is jealous again...doesn't want me to stroke Abel.he destroyed my pink watch which i bought from Taiiwan by biting it...now LeJie,my teammate has her blue watch while i have nothing..haya.blogspot has a problem.it doesn't allow me to posts pictures from my files but onl those from the internet..listening to old Beyonce Songs like beautiful nightmare and irreplaceable. :)nice though.one of my teammys scolded smone from the sec 1 group.maybe the person that comes to my mind is the person she is scolding,or maybe im wrong.okays gtg nows.byes

i love my juniors :)!!its so fun to act crazy in front of them and telling them stories !!!hahah,at least they listen patiently.more retarded pictures. enjoy.hahars.great work sharlene.

saturday,the 16 January.its been two whole days and i hvnt seen or talked to my sister,she got back her O lvl's results and dunno whether she is happy or sad about it.Teammates keep bullying me.but,why be sad :) always smile.then my cells wont die so easily hahars,life's become almost perfect for me.trainings rocks!hvnt done skool literature holidays hmwk yet but..will start on it 2moro,giving a skip to my Dad's hse 2moro.will do hmwk insteead,there is really boring.i have nothing else to do except stare at the laptop screen.i dont find much joy there and my one and only intention on visiting him is,hehe,collect money!!:)yes,im moneyface.but,in the real world,people are greedy and people will kill for money.better start saving.kaes. i gtg nows.besties fwens in volleyball.

i wish i'd knew the perfect way ...

to achieve it.

today,I saw Lejie and Stephanie after skool today at the MRT station,i just felt so bored..and noone was there wif me..looking at my watch and seeing the time,there was still 15 mins till the next bus came.i suddenly felt an urge...an urge to donate money to this blind guy who sells tissue packets near the staircase entrance of the platform.walking slowly hoping to see him there,my hopes were lost just to find myself waiting and looking and emptiness.i slowly walked back,even more discouraged and found Lejie and Stephanie walking together wif this guy...forgetting his name nows...i smiled at them but they were liked shocked to see me and made this funny sound...passing them,i took out the two dollars from my purse and stared at it...i went back to the MRT platform and gave it to this aunt selling ice-cream.she thanked me alot of times.but,i still felt sad.there is this phrase which said''give and u will receive double''but..giving didnt made me happy or sastified unlike other occasions when i gave the blind man selling tissue $1.20...happiness,how do i receive it?

got over the death of Summer i guess,but everytime i see my neighbour,i still feel angry,that hatred.got a new cat,called Abel.it looks like a recarnation of it.volleyball trainings are the best times of my life,though it is tough,the periods re long and tiring.i seem to forget all my troubles when training,my teammates there are all so cool!!but they just looked a little sad,so i always laugh and smile to cheer them up(i thot..)but it doesn't seem to be working.a year ago,i read this book on how to cheer the sad up,and i saw one method which everyone could try,it said that by laughing,u make the others around u wanna laugh oso.but....my teammates still look the same,trying hard but giving it up soon...haya,Germaine keeps following me and seriously,she always talks about things im not interested in...well,maybe its fate that we like,aren't meant to be fwens..so wad should i do?

skipping training 2day..have cough and dont feel like spreading my germs to my teammates least they get sick to and cnnt participate well in the competitions.:)okays,so.instead of wasting my tme doing nothing benefiting for anyone or thing,i am gonna make more ang pao decorations!!blogger has A PROBLEM and i cant upload the pictures from my browser here,only those from the internet can be uplaoded so..if wanna see my pictures,go to facebook and search-sharlene tan kaes.byes!:)

today,i seriously had nothing to do after cming home and goinng out to eat nikon musa-i think thats the name of the japaanese food restaurant- wif my mom and sister,food was really gud!!left and went to Ang Mo Kio popular to buy assesment books,and after cming home again..i had nothing to do again-so..i told myself to helpout making chinese new year's decorations for my house as no one ever mentioned wanting to decorate our house wif ang paos' :)okays,had a litle quarrel wif Huimin and jingyi today,Humin asked me to be normal and Jingyi told me to be the sharlene that she knows.999999her!!hahars,that was made by my cat-Abel..she wants attention..smart cat-noticing me staring at the computer screen and not responding to her meows and purrs makes her do this hahars,okays.tuition teacher is here now.byebye

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Amanda Tan!!today's skool chapel service was really gud!!the songs were nice,as usual like last week,LeJie sat two benches away from my bench row again!so cool!!hahars,when i realised that Huimin was singing the chapel worship song-who i am,i oso..followed her.:)am now commenting and writing on my teammys walls' hahars,its fun.now chatting with Huixin and Lydia-my junior teammys on MSN.now there is this person,who keeps annoying me,not Germaine Lee,but.i hope that she will stop coz she is like a disgrace!!haya,when will my sister come back..i need her help with the making of Jana's birthday present!!...okays,time to go again now,byes

another great day for me today,i actually made paper stars for Jana and it took me a whole of more than three hours,kinda enjoyed it but.:]she accepted it,and i sang to some of my teammys again..the seniors were interested too and it was really embarrassing to sing to the seniors,btw,maybe i will stop singing,dont really think im good anyways:)Had to colour some google wording during my skool's first lesson-White Space,quite fun and rushy though.Training 2day was hard,i fell alot of times,took off my ankle socks upon reaching home and found out that one of my toes was bleeding,safe now,blood has been washed away:)another happy thing that happened for me 2day was that i found money-$0.50 and another $0.40 in the vending machines in my skool canteen!i now that is not much,but still got lucky.i just had tuition from my sister,quite fun though,but she was strict to me..i couldn't eat the grapes that was offered to us by our maid..a whole 9.30-10.30 sitting on the same chair.okays,dont feel like using the laptop anymore,none of the teammys i feel like talking to MSN are online nows,so byebye.

its a good day 2day,i actually sang to my teammys!!not all.:)the rose i got for Jana got spoiled by my teammates yesterday...but its over.i still have one last gift for her,but..its not ready yet :)cnnt wait!!okays,my skool team lost the match 2day..to a mere 2 to 3 points away..Germaine Ong was sad and hid in the staff toilet just outside our skool hall,i went in there and entertained her:)today's literature was nto as boring as the others my class had.okays dinner time nows.byes

she claims to be a christian,but in fact,she doesn't act or behave like one,reading the bible,going to church,singing praises wont help if she is still so stubborn,she can go on around inviting people to her church camp,but look at the way she treats the people around her,all crap!!she is not fit to be a christian.her evil thoughts make her look cunning,her evil acts make her look childish,doing things that christians aren't suppose to do,wad she ever says is crap!!

u might wonder wad this insect is,its an aphid.


its late now...my leg and hand scars aren't healed yet...yayayay!!its late,hope my maid forgets to feed me my water-bashed-up pills :)my mom discussing with a tuition teacher to teach me science and maybe a little english..im really tired now,had a little surprise at home,house was renovated 2day adding 3 ceiling fans and a new house gate is cming.:)as the day gets by..i'm starting to have lesser ideas on wad to write about my day.but,i still love pictures.:)so here are some.

getting lazier each day.church service 2day was really nice,had some brick-breaking thing there.hahars,but..i didnt participate in it.Had pork ribs from 'The Cafe Cartel',really good.:)worth it..i kept daydreaming yesterday,missed alot of balls and just wached them drop to the floor.almost missed a ball that was thrown by my coach for me....i dunno why im like that,blaking out for nothing.listening to tick tock by Keisha now.i didn't eat my bashed up pills yesterday and the day before,my maid is now celebratingon her off-day,its so fast,four years had just gone since the day she came.i wish she wont have to leave,dont wanna lose one of my closest fwen..hahars,maybe she is my only close fwen.:)the thot of her waving goodbye to us at the airport really scares me..the weekend ends 2moro,which means skool is starting.left home at 8.15a.m yesterday,was too excited for the outing with Jemima.waited till like 9.20 before she turned up..i was so discouraged before that..thot that she like,tricked me and just wanted to make me sad.the juniors were there and..i just had to look dumb..okays,this post ends here,byes

still trying to find the source of my sastifaction

didnt post a post yesterday,but..wont be lazy too.i just wanna say to Le Jie,im sorry for knocking u on purpose 2day,twice..okays,maybe i did kick Jemima but that wasn't intentional.dont feel like quarrelling anymore.hahars,my mom and sis came to my skool today,after the volleyball match,played wif my sis outside for a while and went back in the hall when they left for Sentosa.:)still having trouble between some of my teammates,though i didn't get to play in the match,i did scoring for the matches between Yishun
Sec to CHIJ SJC and second match was between my seniors and Anderson.though i was really frustrated and ngry wif myself,it was a blessing in disguise due to me and Sofia getting closer and maybe,becoming fwens.okays,gtg nows.park walk wif my family.lose that fat!!

the North zone competitions are 2moro,not having a good relationship wif my teammays,well not all.only two.i felt like crying again.but it became dry.i changed,back to my oldself,am so not gonna laugh or smile again,it sucks doing those things.i feel so stress out and angry nowadays.am now talking to joey Oh abt smthing,what should my reply to her be...can we all just be the same???why dont i get to play in the competition along wif 2 other ppl just to do a test??i ain't going anywhere even after 1 year,still the same...tonight's prayer,can u let me improve??i dont wanna stay stagnant.i wanna improve,i kept twlling myself that but the same results are shown everyday.i am confused,one of my classmate keeps mentioning my late cats' name,managed to give a fake smile.:)
Can i still stay happy??i cry not over pain,but over sadness.

its time for bed for me now,a message to God,will u let my teammates win the match and make it to the finals,i can feel their burning aspiration for victory,and God,please heal JoeyOh so she can come wach the match on Thursday and Lord,change me.in two days Lord,please let this prayer of mine come true.and help the poor and sick.Me donating $1 to those i see ain't enough,please help them.

Giving my teammates a smile everyday doesn't seem to make me happy,instead,it makes me feel worst as im only fooling myself...?God can i ask u Lord,to let me have a sweet dream tonight and not wake up from it?either way,i dont wanna wake up from it Lord please help me,i feel so scared and stupid.my sister is out again.i practically have no one to talk to except my maid and u...i feel lonely.this happens everyday,everytime i come back home.i wanna stay in skool.should i change back to my old personality?

i seriously love cats!!

its gonna rain now.im reminded of that day.how hard i try to forget it...it still remains.the sky has turned dark.i read from a book that when it rains,it means God is crying.is it true???the clouds are covering the sky...thunders are roaring.just settled smthing with Huimin.better not talk abt it.:)unhappy things should just be put behind.:):):)i wish that,that my teammates would accept me and the juniors.

hahars,skol 2moro,still up using my lappy at exactly 11.08pm?!!!first time i on the com so late :)today..i cried,though i promised myself to never cry again,i broke that promise.i've broken many promises..but,today is my lucky day!!Lejie talked to me without me going to her!!yays!!:):):)i now tell myself again,to be strong and not cry over silly matters again,but..i can cry with tears of joy!!hahars.i love playing the nuisance.:)okays.my eyelids are starting to feel heavy.can picture how my eyebacks are gonna be like 2moro.so lights out!i just hope that if Lejie ever reads this.i want u to noe that Le Jie,u are the coolest person i've met in my life.no one can outbeat or surpass u!!!!Lejie!!!!!!!!!!!

church service has ended,my sister is now at my Grandma's hse.finally completed my hmwk..really exhaausted from sitting on the same chair for 2 whole hours.better start moving.:)Sky is jealous again...doesn't want me to stroke Abel.he destroyed my pink watch which i bought from Taiiwan by biting it...now LeJie,my teammate has her blue watch while i have nothing..haya.blogspot has a problem.it doesn't allow me to posts pictures from my files but onl those from the internet..listening to old Beyonce Songs like beautiful nightmare and irreplaceable. :)nice though.one of my teammys scolded smone from the sec 1 group.maybe the person that comes to my mind is the person she is scolding,or maybe im wrong.okays gtg nows.byes

i love my juniors :)!!its so fun to act crazy in front of them and telling them stories !!!hahah,at least they listen patiently.more retarded pictures. enjoy.hahars.great work sharlene.

saturday,the 16 January.its been two whole days and i hvnt seen or talked to my sister,she got back her O lvl's results and dunno whether she is happy or sad about it.Teammates keep bullying me.but,why be sad :) always smile.then my cells wont die so easily hahars,life's become almost perfect for me.trainings rocks!hvnt done skool literature holidays hmwk yet but..will start on it 2moro,giving a skip to my Dad's hse 2moro.will do hmwk insteead,there is really boring.i have nothing else to do except stare at the laptop screen.i dont find much joy there and my one and only intention on visiting him is,hehe,collect money!!:)yes,im moneyface.but,in the real world,people are greedy and people will kill for money.better start saving.kaes. i gtg nows.besties fwens in volleyball.

i wish i'd knew the perfect way ...

to achieve it.

today,I saw Lejie and Stephanie after skool today at the MRT station,i just felt so bored..and noone was there wif me..looking at my watch and seeing the time,there was still 15 mins till the next bus came.i suddenly felt an urge...an urge to donate money to this blind guy who sells tissue packets near the staircase entrance of the platform.walking slowly hoping to see him there,my hopes were lost just to find myself waiting and looking and emptiness.i slowly walked back,even more discouraged and found Lejie and Stephanie walking together wif this guy...forgetting his name nows...i smiled at them but they were liked shocked to see me and made this funny sound...passing them,i took out the two dollars from my purse and stared at it...i went back to the MRT platform and gave it to this aunt selling ice-cream.she thanked me alot of times.but,i still felt sad.there is this phrase which said''give and u will receive double''but..giving didnt made me happy or sastified unlike other occasions when i gave the blind man selling tissue $1.20...happiness,how do i receive it?

got over the death of Summer i guess,but everytime i see my neighbour,i still feel angry,that hatred.got a new cat,called Abel.it looks like a recarnation of it.volleyball trainings are the best times of my life,though it is tough,the periods re long and tiring.i seem to forget all my troubles when training,my teammates there are all so cool!!but they just looked a little sad,so i always laugh and smile to cheer them up(i thot..)but it doesn't seem to be working.a year ago,i read this book on how to cheer the sad up,and i saw one method which everyone could try,it said that by laughing,u make the others around u wanna laugh oso.but....my teammates still look the same,trying hard but giving it up soon...haya,Germaine keeps following me and seriously,she always talks about things im not interested in...well,maybe its fate that we like,aren't meant to be fwens..so wad should i do?